I wanted you.

I'm so pathetic till I have no friends to talk to already. I'm losing almost all my friends? And I don't know why. Maybe I stopped giving in? K whatever. I dot give a damn, if you cherish me as a friend then make an effort. Okay now, you. Yes I don't even know if you'll read this but you changed. From the start to now, you changed. Maybe you didn't want me to get worried or maybe you're too lazy to be bothered about me. But fucking hell, I'm still deeply in love with you do you know? Ask any girl, which one can tolerate lesser than 10 texts from their boyfriend and meet so rarely. I think I'm understanding enough. But stop making me spam you, I'm sick of all this. I think if I don't even text you for a day you won't even realise right? For that 24/7 boyfriend, what have you became? I still love you do you know? Always when I think alone in the middle of the night, I'll end up crying. Others might be thinking like oh she has a lot of friends, she is like always happy. Happy? I also want to. But why does it always have to end up this way? I just want you to be able to talk to me and share everything with me. This relationship I really wanted it but your actions seems to be asking me to give up. I just want to know, do you still love me? This will be the reason I'll be holding on if your answer is yes. But if it's no, then all my other reasons are worthless. Haha, you might not even read this so why am I typing. Making a fool out of myself.