Hey, I wanna continue dating you.<3

I know, we're over but I still love you. Even if I was the one who initiated the breakup, I didn't want to. It was the last thing I ever wanted to do. I could not accept the cold treatment you were giving me that time. Everything you have did for me, I have never forgotten them not even the smallest details. Every night before I sleep I'll think of you without fail. I know, to you I might be a naive 17years old girl. But look, you're the only one that made me waited for months after a breakup. Many of my past relationships, I admit. I have been a bitch. But to you, I never once thought of a breakup. Others might make me happy but it's only for a short while. One small text from you can make me smile the whole day. I no longer dare to tell you how I feel knowing that there's a high chance of you no replying my text. You said you don't see a future with me but how can you possibly have a future with that someone else. You know it well yourself. I don't mind your past, I don't mind what you have did. All I want is a chance for us to start afresh. Ya, everyone told me to move on and say I'll find someone better. But you're the only one I want. Call me stubborn but I don't know this time how long will I take to move on. Probably to you now I'm just a friend. But to me, you still my everything. Dearest, remember how we used to stick together everyday? Remember how you used to cuddle me in your arms? Remember how we go out tgt with our friends? Remember how sweet we used to be? I want them back. I want you back. Every day when I walk how I'll remember that day when you came over to pick me and told me all those stuffs. It hurts, and everyday I'll have to be haunted by all those memories. I don't know how long I'll take to forget you. How long it'll take to bring you back to me. But I really hope that day will come. I can't fall for someone else when my heart's with you. I won't force you to leave that someone but just to let you know I'll always be there for you. <3

I wanted you.

I'm so pathetic till I have no friends to talk to already. I'm losing almost all my friends? And I don't know why. Maybe I stopped giving in? K whatever. I dot give a damn, if you cherish me as a friend then make an effort. Okay now, you. Yes I don't even know if you'll read this but you changed. From the start to now, you changed. Maybe you didn't want me to get worried or maybe you're too lazy to be bothered about me. But fucking hell, I'm still deeply in love with you do you know? Ask any girl, which one can tolerate lesser than 10 texts from their boyfriend and meet so rarely. I think I'm understanding enough. But stop making me spam you, I'm sick of all this. I think if I don't even text you for a day you won't even realise right? For that 24/7 boyfriend, what have you became? I still love you do you know? Always when I think alone in the middle of the night, I'll end up crying. Others might be thinking like oh she has a lot of friends, she is like always happy. Happy? I also want to. But why does it always have to end up this way? I just want you to be able to talk to me and share everything with me. This relationship I really wanted it but your actions seems to be asking me to give up. I just want to know, do you still love me? This will be the reason I'll be holding on if your answer is yes. But if it's no, then all my other reasons are worthless. Haha, you might not even read this so why am I typing. Making a fool out of myself.

I want this to last for a lifetime.

Hi dearest, not sure if you'll read this but just posting it here. You should be at town by now while I'm working when I'm sick. So suckish :( god damn, time please pass faster. I think I'll be requesting for off on Monday and Friday or Saturday. So exhausted that I can drop dead any moment right now. You have a month plus to quit smoking and 17more days to our first month. Happy? Haha. You better be. I love you honey, mua :*

I just want you.

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right nowI remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left aloneWe talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you
Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving youI've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memoriesI just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

Now you tell me I'm better off as a friend and you're interested in my friend. Wtf? Put yourself in my shoes will you. I really want you, only you. Do you fucking get it?!

I'll take a lifetime to love you. ♥

Fuckit, no one know how I feel actually. You're like drugs, got me so addictive yet in fact you're ruining me but it's ok, I rather ruin myself.

Kiss me ♥

Alright, this is going to be a wordy post.

I'm just busy with work recently and have a very serious attitude problem.

Issue one, I stress about my sales @ work. Damn it like seriously, I can't wake up on time then my boss keep kpkpkp. Next one to be fired on the list - Evelyn. Good thing is, I GOT MY PAY. FUCKING SHIOK OK, 2 weeks for $600plusplus. Shiok or shiok? VERY SHIOK. Bought my bag and wallet cause I think it's time for a change. Damn it la k, I spend my pay like water now abit heartpain already :((

Issue two, olevel results will be out next monday. Tell me how? I'm damn worried about my results even though I appear as if I don't give a shit la . God, please bless me. I did work fucking hard ok :(((

To that guy that actually waited for me oh so long, I just have to tell you that I'm a heartbreaker. Give up on me, I'm the worse girl you can ever find. There's someone better out there for you. Sorry but yes trust me, in that four months I did love you. ♥

Zirca ♥

Yes, headed down to Zirca's event last night with my ladies above. The queue was kind of shitty, even after I got my guestlist entry I still had to wait for them cause there's no fun without them around. Familar faces all around, club like there's no tomorrow. Although it wasn't that fun as I expected cause of some reasons, I still enjoyed myself. Left at about 4:30am, I can really drop dead on the floor. My legs were killing me :( Called my boyfwiee after club, even though he don't like it he still allowed me to go. I love you hunney, and you're real sweet for staying up and wait for me to go home safely.

Memories haunting me, I still miss you. so wtf is all this for, you're out of my life. K, bye.