Words from my heart.

To anyone whose name is mentioned in this post, if you're unhappy that's your issue. It's my blog post, my say.

Yes, it's her. Hanyi, the girl who I used to loved the most, who is the one who went thru lots of ups and downs with me, the one who I was with everyday, the one that was my bloodbond. It's pretty obvious to everyone that knows us. We quarrelled, had issues and things took a 360 degree turn. On 12May, I lost her due to a quarrel which I don't want to elaborate and yes, it was linked the her most recent ex boyfriend. I broke down at my friend's house, cried like a little bitch but I know that I have to face the reality. People come and go, I thought that she'll stay but perhaps I was wrong. Apart from that many issues came along, be it on facebook or whenever. We just can't seem to take each other's existance. Without fail, whenever I think about her, I can't stop my tears from rolling. You might be thinking that I'm oh-so fake but it's alright. As I mentioned that this is all words from my heart. Once and again, she broke my heart. I'll never forget how close we used to be, how much memories we used to share in that one year and six months. I cried umpteen times and I got sick and tired of it. We used to gossip like crazy girls, have fun tgt, share everything we have, I'll never forget them. After everything, I still can't get over her. Yes, so what if I'm a weakling and whatever you think. She just mean that much to me, everything we been thru just got stuck in my mind. She's the first person that came up to my mind when everything happened. Whines, tears, happiness, EVERY FUCKING THING, she was with there for me. I still gave her a second chance, or more than that because everyone deserves a second chance but things didn't turn out the way I wanted. Kristlyn told me that she was down and everything, I don't want to say it out as she has her own privacy. I can't bear to see her this way even after all she did, she meant too much to me. BUT YES, I moved on. Suanwen, Jiayun, Maeve & lastly, Magdeline. They were the one there for me, doing everything the could to cheer me up. Suanwen and Jiayun, my two girls who came to my house void deck at 1am plus to make sure that I was fine after all those issue. Thanks loads, I really appreciate it. Maeve and Magdeline, meeting me more often and making me laugh. I'll never forget all these you guys have did for me. To Hanyi, maybe in the past I wasn't a good friend afterall, sorry for everything I used to do that hurt you or make you sad but you'll never know how much it hurts when you left me, you'll never know how much hatred I felt towards you especially that night. I cried on the way home, not because of the physical pain but what that broke my heart. Really, you'll never expect how much it hurts. I did gave you chances but you didn't come back to my side. I know I did bitch about how much I hate you and stuffs but at the end of the day, I'll still get soft hearted towards you. Regardless of what happened in the past, promise me you'll be happy, I'll lend you a listening ear if you still trust me but if you don't it's okay. Move on, don't hold onto him anymore. You have a good blood sister, Jolyn. Cherish her, she's the one that care about you, the one that will never leave you, the one that made most effort for us to be friends. Yes, we can be friends BUT no longer like the past. If this post made you disappointed in me, all I can say is just sorry. Ignore the ahshy or whoever, live your life to the fullest.

Magdeline, a girl that I can't live without now. She's really been a real nice friend, my dearest bestfriend. Yes, she was there when I lost Hanyi. Being by my side, giving my advices and all, really a big thank you to you. I know when I told you about Hanyi recent events, you kept telling me to go back to her but do you know how much you mean to me? Our first meeting at e!hub, your first gift to me and maeve, the pingyi bear from you, the pig eraser, our first K session at kcc when I first broke down infront of you because of her, my first visit to your house, my first dinner with you and your family, when I went to find you cause of your injured leg, when you first came to my house, when you first went out with me and my mum , when you had dinner with my family, when you spend your sundays to accompany me at home because I was grounded, when you attended outside dinners with me and my family, when we first went cine together, when you first met branda, when we had a nap at your house waking up beside each other. Baby, everything you have did for me. I'll never forget them. Please don't leave me, cause I can't afford to lose another bestfriend. I hate it when you're down, so please stay happy. Don't give me a cold shoulder, I'm paranoid. I'll think alot when you ignore me, yes. that's because you mean a lot to me. Be mine? ♥

The picture above is my current clique, the clique that I never wanna leave. Franchette ♥

From the left - Khelin, Magdeline, Nicole, Evelyn , Branda & lastly our little boss Liling.

Dearest girls, there's a million words to say but I only can find one line to express how I feel right now. I love you girls very very much.

Khelin, thanks for being such a good listener who always listen to all my whinings and giving me advices. Looking forward to more outings with you, we prolly will get to work together. Time spent with you was real fun, especially the pirate ship we both sat. :*

Magdeline - All I wanted to say was, you're such a bitch. But I love the way you're. (L)

Nicole - We might not be as close, let's have more outings with the clique. (:

Branda - My dearest panda, our malaysia trip and all our memories. I will never forget them, you're a great friend that I can really trust. We know each other for quite sometime already, although we might not text all day long, but we do have lots to rant at each other . Looking forward to working with you tomorrow. :*

Liling- Hell, it's the youngest girl in franchette. You're the one talking on the phone with me till early morning. Always attacking us with your hair, your birthday was a blast i think? HAHA, i really love this young girl here. My happy pill indeed, always making me happy. She's real cute, like a small princess for us to pamper. Dope :*


Alright, I'm finally done with the post. Yes, I cried while typing this post but also I ended up smiling cause I'm satisfied with what I have now. I might have been a bitch in the past, but I'm changing for the good. Forgiving everyone, and I hope that you guys will forgive me for whatever shit I did in the past. It's indeed a long post. Ending it right now. With loves, EvelynHo. (: